- find out what I want in life
- this moment to happen
- be a Dean's List-er
- learn how to ride a motorcycle
- go skydiving
- go scuba diving
- make my own blog layout
- learn how to use Flash
- travel more
- improve my drawing skills
- go to a Flea market
- a Tarot Card Deck
- fashion sense
- femme outfits
- witty t-shirts
- vintage clothes and accessories
- make my own clothes!
- go on a shopping spree
- contribute to WWF
- a DSLR
- bake something
- A CAR
- A CAR THAT I CAN DRIVE - an underwater camera
- cosplay again
- visit my online friends
- stop being a safeist
I wish I was smarter than I am. People say I'm smart, but I still do the dumbest things ever. I'm 18, but I'm so irresponsible, so stupid, so careless. And I get other people mixed up in this stupidity of mine.
I don't know what to do now. I feel so bad. I should have known better.
Belated Happy Birthday, Dad! Listening to: My Chemical Romance ~ Ghost of You
My dad celebrated his 54th birthday two days ago. :D He still acts like a kid at times though, and no one thinks he's 50+ because he looks like he's in his 30's. :p
To celebrate, we went to this fancy Japanese restaurant at Diamond Hotel for dinner. It was really nice there. o: They had metal trees with glass leaves there, and it was really beautiful. The biggest tree there had small pin lights on the leaves, and it made it even more beautiful.
Afterwards, we went to the CCP to watch the Nagoya Philharmonic Orcestra concert. It was fun people watching while waiting for the concert hall to open; there were all sorts of people there, wearing all sorts of different styles of clothes. Some were in casual clothes, while some were really dressed up. It's a good thing my mom convinced me to wear something nice for the night. The concert itself was spectacular. So many instruments, blending together to make music; it was just great! I fell asleep at some parts (LOL) but I loved every moment I was awake. I remember asking Ginno if he would rather be musically inclined or more inclined to drawing; he told me music. I myself wish I had the talent for music, but I don't think I'll manage to train myself to be good with an instrument, or even with my voice. If ever it is to happen, I don't think it's going to happen any time soon.
Yesterday, I went shopping with my girls. :D Gela, Gretchen, Cai, Racine, Maku and I went to Glorietta to spend our cash. We went everywhere in search of clothes; Maku ended up buying more than we did, though. XD I only spent 50Php on a cellphone keychain. =p Ate dinner at Mexicali, where I was mean as I couldn't stop laughing at one of Maku's pics (Peace~! XD), and where Cai totally fingered my Sour Cream. XD We dropped Cai off at her house afterwards, and the rest of us went to Royale to have Crepes. :D After that, SLEEPOVER! 8D Racine, Gretchen and Gela spent the night at my house. The four of us slept on the floor as we asked each other random questions. We eventually fell asleep as we waited for each other to ask something. =p
Now, I'm alone in the house. XD I don't mind, really. I'm pretty used to it. =p I can't wait to get a car though. Sigh. I want to go out with Ginno. X3 His sembreak just started, and I can't wait to see him. I haven't seen him since forever. D:
I honestly have nothing better to do right now. I don't have load for RF, I'm stuck at home, Ginno's still asleep, and I'm too lazy to do anything else, so I'll just watch some anime I DLed. *bum*
It's been one week into the sem break, and the last time I posted was on October 2; where the hell have I been?
I found a little hole called Rising Force Online, and I've been living there for the past week. I should really get some rest. But I'll get back to that later.
I started on a post during my finals week, but I never got around to posting it. But like a faithful (*cough*) blogger that I am, I wrote the entry in a notebook, so I have it now. I'll post it because it covers some of the things I wasn't able to post about sooner.
Finally, I get to write in my blog. I've just been either insanely busy ore annoyingly depressed to write. Now it's finals week, so it's all going to be over soon enough.
I've missed a lot of things. The past weeks have just been hell. Schoolwork just piled up and it was just insane. It's a miracle that I survived it all, really. Just last week I finished 8 hours of swimming, as well as my soccer finals. Add to that papers, projects and reports. In-game matters and personal things as well. Blargh. I'm glad it's almost over. Sembreak plzktnx.
Milenyo blew through two weeks ago, surprising everone with how strong it was. We lost power like everyone else, but got it back after a few hours. I passed the time reading the copy of Neil Gaiman and Yoshitaka Amano's The Sandman: The Dream Hunters that Ginno gave me. :) Many of my friends were stuck without power for a few days until they got it back. We were really lucky, now that I think about it. We were able to get electricity, internet, and cable back on the same day. Lots of billboards fell in those few hours, littering EDSA aside from destroying some buildings and killing one man. Many trees fell. Ironic, really; when faced with typhoons, we usually rejoice since we only expect rain that'll spell no school for students such as myself. Now, they're coordinating emergency drills, and taking down billboards.
Saturday, I went out with Ginno. We almost didn't get to meet up, but luckily everything worked out and we got to spend the evening together. :3 We went to Shang, and I took Ginno window shopping with me. 8D I only bought a shirt though.
Sunday, I went to LU! Live. Ginno would have gone with me, if he knew I was going. I fell asleep on him the night before though, so I wasn't able to tell him. LU Live was fun. :) I got to meet a lot of the people I play RF with. HOL invaded the place. XD We were so many, it was surprising! I got to meet a lot of the forumers too, as well as my friends from the cafe I used to play at. I also got to see Maku, as well as Carlo. At one point I was helping at one of LU's booths (Maku forced me too D: ) and then the people there started fighting. LOL. XD Then when I left, people stopped going too. :)) I waited until NEST, which took forever. It was worth it though, as the fight was intense and Bellato won. :D
This saturday I went out with Ginno and his mom to watch a play. @_@ I was so nervous. X3 We watched 'The Boor and The Proposal' at Greenbelt 1. The play was ok, but it was pretty short for something that cost 550php per head. @_@ We walked around, ate at Haiku, then bummed at Starbucks. I feel really bad because I was still recovering from my hell week and I was spacing out from time to time. Gah.
Sometimes I think I'd blog better if I had some sort of recording device in my brain. I mean, I think up of pretty good stuff when I'm not in front of the PC, like when I'm washing the dishes, or when I'm on an FX going home. Then when I get to the PC, my trail of thought goes *poof*. I seem to be better at narrating things than describing them. I guess that's why I post more about what happens to me during the day rather than posting about what I feel.
Whenever I do get mad, I post it on my LJ. Go figure. Lately though, people have been testing my patience. I'd rather not get mad, really; it's so tiring, and most of the time you don't accomplish anything from getting mad. This is only most of the time, though. Still, some people manage to push the right buttons to make even me lose my cool. Last night I lost it while playing RF, after some jerk started throwing insults at some of my guildmates. It's just so frustrating, knowing that you can't do anything to them. I cried really hard. I was so angry, but I couldn't do anything. I know that I should have just ignored him. I made the mistake of not doing so though. I've more patience when people throw mindless insults at me. My patience is a lot shorter when it's directed at people I care for. Last night's outburst still has me tired until now, but the things that person said has turned into a motivation of some sort to prove the arse wrong.
Another thing; I hate it when people judge me for the things that make me happy. I am as open minded as I can be when it comes to other people's happiness, because I know that my sources of happiness aren't the same as most people's. Accidentally offending someone is something I'm familiar with; I have a tendency to talk before thinking, but these are most of the time a slip of the tongue. Yet people like to tell me outright that I'm like this or like that. It's my happiness, why tmake such a big deal out of it? It's not like what I do or what I like or who I like affects you or anyone else in any negative way. Why can't people be more considerate?
Take a Breather Listening to: Saves the Day ~ Nightingale
The past weeks have been ridiculously depressing (save for Saturday and Sunday), and now I've pretty much reached my limit. I'm so tired. I honestly feel like crying now because I'm just so tired. I hate how school is taking over my life. My room is a total mess and I haven't been able to do anything about it. I haven't even been able to talk to Ginno because I keep on falling asleep while we're texting. I sleep on clothes, bags, and all sorts of other junk. I fall asleep on my keyboard.