- find out what I want in life
- this moment to happen
- be a Dean's List-er
- learn how to ride a motorcycle
- go skydiving
- go scuba diving
- make my own blog layout
- learn how to use Flash
- travel more
- improve my drawing skills
- go to a Flea market
- a Tarot Card Deck
- fashion sense
- femme outfits
- witty t-shirts
- vintage clothes and accessories
- make my own clothes!
- go on a shopping spree
- contribute to WWF
- a DSLR
- bake something
- A CAR
- A CAR THAT I CAN DRIVE - an underwater camera
- cosplay again
- visit my online friends
- stop being a safeist
To Speedo-kun: Yup! n_n Tell me the addies to those yaoi doujinshi sometime, alright? :) Here is a page with some scanlations of Yami no Matsuei. n_n It only goes up to volume three tho. But it's still worth checking out.
Well! I've changed my layout once again... I really like this one. n_n I think I'll stick with this for a while. It's even my fav. color! And I don't care if it's a dead color mom! ><
Anyway, nothing much has happened lately. Jeth's now trying out his new disposable contacts. n_n;; And I quote: My eyes!!!! Haha, it's funny. n_n;;
Ergh, I'm a bit braindead at the moment.. I've been doing a lot since this morning. >< I think I'll sleep now.
I've read the first three volumes of Yami no Matsuei, and I'm hooked! n_n I like Hijiri for some reason. Oh yeah, I remember getting him on a quiz. Tsuzuki and Hisoka are priceless! And Muraki... Muraki interests me. n_n Seriously!
To Speedo-kun: I think you should get a Yahoo Messenger. That way, if we're both online, we can chat! n_n You don't need a yahoo e-mail adress to sign or anything either! n_n
Argh... My mom, dad and brother are going to Virginia, and are leaving me behind! Argh. It's so shitty! Really! >P They're just going to leave me with my aunt. It's so mean!
I accidentaly cut my finger with a razor blade early this morning. It's pretty ironic, because my dad had just told me to be careful, then I cut myself. n_n;; I didn't tell him I cut myself though; he would probably freak out and suffer a panic attack. XD Anyway, it was sorta weird because it just surprised me. It didn't hurt much, but there was a lot of blood! ><
We went to Glorietta to watch Johnny English, but ended up just walking around. My mom bought me boots! n_n I also bought some books. I saw this one book; A Guide to Tolkien. I wanted to get it, but I decided against it. I need to save like everyone else! ><
I watched Animal Planet this morning, and the show was about animal fathers. Gosh! I was amazed at how quickly I realized that some males really suck. Can you believe that male seals actually rape female seals just for the sex?! Sheesh! It made me scream out one of my new mottos:
Hay... it's 2:00 a.m... I have to stay up untill we leave for Iriga so I can sleep on the way there.n_n;;
I've really gotten into yaoi lately... n_n;; But I have no idea what 1x2 and all that other stuff means. XD And I had no idea that Jakult was actually... that. Yech. XP Maybe I still have some innocence in me. Nah. Anyway... I found some Gundam Wing doushinshi [?] you can see a pic here. I found it quite funny. n_n Yeah, I've also gotten into that as well, and... well.. some other things. n_n
Nope. No luck. I just hope Speedo-kun doesn't kill me. n_n; I got HeeroxDuo. *sigh* can you believe it? Have the world hates me!! XP But I won't let one quiz spoil my day! Right? I should've gotten YukitoxTouya.... n_n;;
It's amazing what people would say over a song. I download lot's of files using WinMX, a file sharing program like Kazaa. I was downloading anime episodes, so I kept the computer on all through the night. I was only able to get back to the computer at about 3:00 p.m today, and it turns out this guy was messaging me throughout the whole night. Apparently he wanted to download one of the songs on the computer, but kept on getting disconnected. n_n;; Poor guy. He wanted the song so badly he messaged me about 15 times. But then again, he got pissed off with me [duh! How the heck am I supposed to reply?] and told me that he had already downloaded the song off of someone else, saying that I was an 'ignorant bastard', and that I should go do a bear. n_n;;; MEN!
I'm currently looking up the anime, Wolf's Rain. I've been hearing that it's really good, so I've decided to look it up myself. From what I've read and found, I've been convinced to actually start downloading it on WinMX. n_n;; With that, I just have to say that I love Google. I usually find everything there. n_n What?? You thought I was going to say someone's name?? Heh! You wish! XD
Well, lot's more happened than my previous post, so I'll post it. I'll try not to transmit gloomy vibes through your screens. n_n
I've been trying to write something, anything for quite a while now. Nothing's some out. n_n ARGH! I wonder if I'll ever get my character's past right. n_n; I wonder if I'll ever get anything right. n_n;;;
''A little biRdy in the sKy
DroPped A poOpOO in mY eyE.
I didNt Laugh,
I diDnt cry.
I jusT tHanKEd God...
COWS DONT FLY''
I got this off of AC. I found it funny. n_n Here's another one.
"Duct tape is like the force, it has a dark side, it has a light side, and it holds the Universe together."
I got this off of a blog that's no longer updated. Too bad.
Oh yeah. I bought this manga... Shadow of the Dark River. This is the same manga that made Enid go on a kissing craze... n_n But this is the second volume, so it's got things other that FKs. Hehe. n_n;; I've shown it Gela already, and I think I've gotten her hooked. She wants me to look for the third volume. n_n *shrugs* What can I say?
Oh yeah, I've red streaks in my hair... my mom let me! n_n
Ok. It hasn't sunken in yet, so I'll take this opportunity to post it now before I become increasingly depressed.
My aunt died early this morning... cancer. Tristan and Pocholo's mom. I'm scared to go to Iriga now... I dunno. Maybe I'm in denial or something.. Even my father pointed out that in a span of roughly four years, we've lost many of those close to us. Chiara, Eddie boy, Cheif, Indy, Uncle Sonny, Lolo Ernie, Lolo Judge and now Auntie Jing-jing. It's like some sick coincidence. Even freakier, at around 11:30 last night, something 'flashed' in my eyes. I was freaked out to find out she died early this morning...
I'm not sure what I'm going to do when I het to Iriga. I'm probably going to become moral support.. I hope I can handle it this time.
Hehe. I haven't updated my blog lately, now have I. Nope! My cousin from Austria was staying in the study room, so basically I was cut off from the internet for three days. Oh well. Lalala... I'm quite bored. Let's just try to remember what I was feeling for the past three or so days.
Let's see... April 4!
April 4, 2003
My brother graduated high schoool today. I'm reluctant to say it, but I guess I'm a bit jealous of him. Most of the time I'm used to getting all the attention in the house, now everyone's concentrating on Jeth. Recognition Day, Graduation Day, Graduation Prom... I dunno. I'm just not used to it. I guess I'm pretty selfish huh? Weird to think. Goody-two-shoes me is not so angelic. But then again, who said I was angelic in the first place? n_n;;
April 5, 2003
Stephan is here. He's my cousin from my dad's side. He's from Austria, and can speak fluent German. Crystal and I had fun having him translate some phrases for us [Mostly Crystal; she was in a questionable state], like 'Fuck the truth', 'You suck!' and 'Shit!'. I still remember some of them. Haha. I wonder if I'll actually end up using them.
Crystal [my 17 year old aunt] and I were lying down on my top bunk doing nothing. We were talking about how we really didn't have anything to do, but the topic just led us to that; doing nothing. So we just stayed there, staring at the ceiling. Then Crystal asked me, "Ria, what's the meaning of our lives??" in a very subtle manner. I replied, "Gosh Crystal, are we really that bored?"
But that just brings me to why I don't like having nothing to do. It's not that I dislike not having anything to do because I don't have anything to do, but it makes me think of things I don't want to think about because there really is nothing else to do. [I hope you got that. n_n;;]
For some reason, I don't feel as if Jeth has already graduated. It's like I've always had to be the big sister to him, and he's off to college!
Gosh, the house will be so empty once he leaves.
April 7, 2003
I can't really remember anything that happened yesterday, so I'll just post about today. Stephan has gone back to Uncle Teddy's place, where he first started. Crystal is leaving tomorrow, so basically I'll be pretty alone in this house since Jeth locks himself up in his room all day long. Really, I don't want to be alone. It's makes me think too much. I remember this time during sophomore year, I was supposed to organize my group in cooking as the next day we would be cooking/baking something. [I forget.] I was sitting on the couch upstairs SMSing everyone, then I had to wait for their replies. I started to think too much during my wait, and I had to leave the organizing up to Mikara.
Hmmmmmmmmmmm. Here I go again. I'm starting to think too much. I don't want to be alone. Jeth is leaving, Crystal is leaving... I mean, even if Jeth holes himself up in his room, I still know he's there. But in June, he'll be gone...
I'm thinking too much again.
P.S--> I did end up using the German words Stephan taught me.
I just watched Forest Gump and Cast Away, both with Tom Hanks as the lead role. I dunno, both movies hit me in a way. It should have hit me a long time ago, since I've already seen them before. Forest Gump... it made me feel like I'm wasting my time. My mom told me that there is no such thing as a limited person. And I quote, 'Stupid is as stupid does.' Well, something like that. On the other hand, Cast Away made me feel like I was an island in the middle of the sea. I may have everything, but I'm surrounded by merely water.