- find out what I want in life
- this moment to happen
- be a Dean's List-er
- learn how to ride a motorcycle
- go skydiving
- go scuba diving
- make my own blog layout
- learn how to use Flash
- travel more
- improve my drawing skills
- go to a Flea market
- a Tarot Card Deck
- fashion sense
- femme outfits
- witty t-shirts
- vintage clothes and accessories
- make my own clothes!
- go on a shopping spree
- contribute to WWF
- a DSLR
- bake something
- A CAR
- A CAR THAT I CAN DRIVE - an underwater camera
- cosplay again
- visit my online friends
- stop being a safeist
Devious Blog Entry~ Listening to: Breathe ~ Prodigy
I'm looking out the window right now. The sky is a mix of dull orange and grey, and I can see the feather life seeds of the tall grass in the feild next to our house floating next to the window.
Anyway. n_n;; This morning when I woke up, the sun was in my eye! As in, just like out of the movies. Haha, pretty funny. :P
Friday>> Went out with friends for a birthday bash thing-a-ma-jig. Walked around, ate at Fazoli's, watched The Terminal (I CRIED! Damn, I'm pathetic. XD) walked around more, PowerStation-ed. Oh, and got NeoPrints too. Unfortunately I had a big mouth that night. >_< Shit. Sorry to the one I offended. I really need to learn how to bolt my mouth shut. Then on Saturday I stayed home the whole day.. I became really sick on saturday; headaches, stuffy nose, cough. But I had my first day of Guitar Lessons at lunch. Yay. :D
Then today we went to Rockwell after church... Today was Uncle Sonny's death aniversary. Mom was crying. Yeah.. So we went to Rockwell and watched The Bourne Supremacy. He seemed a bit too invincible in the movie, but the car chase was the best part imo. :) We also ate at Burgoo's. I drew on the table. XD I've even got a *pic* of it because one of the drawings ended up looking nice. I FINALLY bought myself RO Load. I haven't played all weekend. T_T
You're a punk rock mommy! DIY is probably your motto, because you're a punk mama at heart. Your kids are getting your independent spirit and guts, and learning to solve problems themselves. You love it when they show their independence, even when it's breaking your heart.
Getting over it? Listening to: Blurry - Puddle of Mud
I'm over the cosplay thing. XD I swear I'll kick ass next time tho. >:D
I've been thinking about him lately. He hasn't talked to me in 2 weeks now. I can't help but wonder what are we now? What are we now? n_n;; Does he expect me to talk to him first? Because I expect him to talk to me first.. actually, he never greeted me on my birthday. He hasn't talked to me since then. I never really expected it to go this far; but now that it's coming to an end, it's hard to think of it coming to an end. 'Just dump him! XD' is taken from one of my friends, but something holds me back from doing it? It's amazing how in the movies and sitcoms, girls just dump guys like dirty clothes. O_o I just want him to forget about me. Never call me again or whatever. It'd be easier that way. It'd be selfish that way. XD
He PMed me once when I was playing. But I ignored him because I'm supposed to be mad right? I should be mad, but the other side of my brain is yelling at me for being so shallow. n_n;
I took the ACET yesterday. Damn, it was hard. It was harder than the UPCAT. English was easy, Math was hard, Abstract Reasoning was annoying, and no one finished Logical Reasoning. O_o Crap. If I don't pass the ACET, I'm totally screwed. x_x
After teh ACET we, Camilla, Racine, Gela, Alex, and Jane went to the U Got Game Convention. I cosplayed as a Rogue from Ragnarok Online~!! :P
The thing that annoyed me the most tho was that a guy cosplaying as a Blacksmith got into the 20 Finalists. There were only 50 or so of us cosplaying for RO. I mean, he didn't even look like he was cosplaying AT ALL. I didn't even know he was cosplaying! FRICK! He wasn't even a Juno Character!!! And he got into the top 20 and wins a pair of slotted sunglasses?! That's so BIASED!!! I mean, besides me, there were WAY MORE DESERVING costumes there! It so pisses me off. Tsh. And all the kids cosplaying automatically got in too. There should have been a Junior Cosplaying Division for them..
Argh. Maybe I'm being a sore loser. I had a fun time, but I can't help but feel like I was cheated at the cosplay, like some of the other cosplayers there. Crap, I can't believe I'm so hung up on this.. am I wrong to feel like this? Because it's really bothering me.
Terrorists.. and other things Listening to: Yellow ~ Coldplay
The news now-a-days is so depressing. Especially the terrorist takeover of the school in Russia. So many children were killed there.. I'm so confused as to how people can do such horrendous acts just to get their point thru. Just today, there was a car bombing in Jakarta. 4 people are dead. I remember when terrorists bombed the MRT/LRT (I'm not sure anymore which it was). Sometimes I feel like just falling to my knees and crying because the world has become such a chaotic place.
ON THE LIGHTER SIDE OF LIFE. Lolz. I'm getting tired of being sad and writing about sad stuff. Today the earthquake drill bell went off, then we started going down like usual.. haha, then we were told to go back to our classrooms because the drill was just for the grade school. XD The rest of the day was crappish. But I don't care really.. Tomorrow we watch El Fili!! :P
You know... Listening to: Music I wish I could drown in~
I don’t update my blog that much anymore, even if I’m online all the time. And when I can’t go online when I want to, I get irritated and frustrated. It’s like a part of me is inaccessible. I wonder what has made me so drawn to the internet. Now that I think about it, my real life is suffering because of the gravity my computer has on me. I mean, I got sick this week because I’ve been staying up late. Too late. =/ I didn’t update last night because I fell asleep early. My main frustration is: I have no sense of self-control what so ever. No sense of responsibility, no set of priorities, no goals. Well, that’s what my dad said. And that’s what my mom always says. Yes, I feel so encouraged.
Friday I was uber giddy. Like, Gela giddy. I mean, I was generally happy, even if my whole week at school had been total hell, even if I was nearly falling asleep in class, putting up with a sore and reluctant-to-move body, and dealing with abdominal pains. (*sarcasm* Yay for Softball Practice and Intrams! :D *sarcasm*) But now I feel like… like crap. I had no classes today, no more sore body, and no more abdominal pains, but I feel like crap. Can anyone ask me how ironic this situation is? Whatever.
Today I went with my dad and my mom to take my brother to school, because afterwards we were to look for cloth for my cosplay. On the way back, my dad asked me when the cosplay was. I told him. Then he asked me when the ACET was. I told him. (They’re both on the same day) Then he asked me what time the cosplay was, and I told him. Then he asked what time the ACET was. I thought for a moment, and told him I wasn’t sure.
He then said really sarcastically, “Wow, she knows what time the cosplay is, but not the ACET!”
Ouch Dad. Ouch.
Fine. I don’t have my priorities straight. I don’t have anything straight for that matter. Fine, I’m not as responsible as Jeth or my other classmates or my friends. Fine, I don’t know how to budget my time. Fine, I’m selfish. Fine, I’m not your little girl. Fine, I’m not an honor student. Fine, I’m inconsiderate. Fine, I waste energy. Fine, I have to put my act together. Fine.