The Bottom Line
Some soul searching will turn up all the right answers. What was the question?
In Detail
You're not mean-spirited -- not one tiny little bit. You can, however, be goaded into behavior that's beneath you if someone shows anything less than total respect for a worthy cause -- much less one that's near and dear to your heart. If you've already warned them, or if you know they've heard about your recent dealings with someone that impolite, you won't hesitate to come out with both guns blazing. And well you should...
Once you make up your mind about someone, it's tough to change it, especially if a long-term dispute is at the heart of that opinion. For now, it might be best for you to let all that go, though, no matter what it was, and try to let the past truly become the past. Of course, it all depends on whether the situation is something you can forgive. If so, give it a try. If not, you might as well be as civil as possible.
im lonely. i can accept the fact that i have loads of friends, pero iba yung may kasama ka na alam mo na mahalaga sayo. i want to find someone who i can share my being me. people tend to look at me like a kid, but that's because i am happy. and there's nothing wrong with that.