The Bottom Line
Some soul searching will turn up all the right answers. What was the question?
In Detail
You're not mean-spirited -- not one tiny little bit. You can, however, be goaded into behavior that's beneath you if someone shows anything less than total respect for a worthy cause -- much less one that's near and dear to your heart. If you've already warned them, or if you know they've heard about your recent dealings with someone that impolite, you won't hesitate to come out with both guns blazing. And well you should...
Once you make up your mind about someone, it's tough to change it, especially if a long-term dispute is at the heart of that opinion. For now, it might be best for you to let all that go, though, no matter what it was, and try to let the past truly become the past. Of course, it all depends on whether the situation is something you can forgive. If so, give it a try. If not, you might as well be as civil as possible.
im lonely. i can accept the fact that i have loads of friends, pero iba yung may kasama ka na alam mo na mahalaga sayo. i want to find someone who i can share my being me. people tend to look at me like a kid, but that's because i am happy. and there's nothing wrong with that.
Listening to: Typecast ~ Phoenix
John:
Everyone has the potential to be psychotic. It's just the probability and the how prone a person is to becoming psychotic that changes. You'll be in a ward, I'll be on the run. ;)
Mez:
I suppose. But that still sucks. XD
Blitz:
Tee hee. XD Random bouts of insanity. ("\(*o*)/")
Carlo:
I don't want them to get mad, so I'll lay off for now. XP I don't want them totally banning me from the PC. XD
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Man, I just DLed the first episode of Tsubasa : Reservoir Chronicle and it doesn't work on my winamp or windows media player. XP I can hear the sounds but I don't see anything. XD So I watch the visualizer. It's pretty hypnotizing. But the other ones look like they could cause a seizure. O_o
Yesterday I went out with my girls to Eastwood. After going to my classes, I met up with Gela at McDo Katipunan. A milestone for Ria! : I wore a skirt. A skirt that's above my knees. XD Yes, the world is coming to an end. But I wasn't the only one as Gela was also in a dress. :P Still, I felt veeeeeeery... bare. XD Exposed. Lol! Ah well, there's a first for everything. We ate in McDo while waiting for Racine and Maku. While we were ordering, a part of the ceiling fell! O_o We didn't get to see it fall since we were ordering our food, but we got to see it when we went to sit down. It literally collapsed! Tubes, cement, lights; all of it. I also got to see another person at McDo. Face paint? Pfft. XD After McDo, Gela and I went to NBS so I could look for an atlas, and when we couldn't find one, we literally bummed around inside. :P After a while of waiting, we met up with Racine and Maku and we took a taxi to Eastwood. Taxis are ebil. XD
We went to Seattle's Best, then to PowerStation. Walked abit, then went in to catch the trailers. Rawr, so many movies to look forward to. XD We watched Fantastic Four. It was ok, I suppose. It seemed short for me though. Gela thinks the Human Torch is HOT. XD Yeah well, he's got a cute personality but it's not my type. ;) After that, I think we ate. I don't really remember. XD But we ate at Kenny Roger's, and the food there is pretty good. XD We stayed there for like.. over an hour after we finished eating. XD We just talked and talked. Then we left and went to Coffee Bean where Gela and Racine drank uber milky hot chocolate and Maku and I got honey sticks. Honey sticks. <3 Got some doughnuts, and went home. I was supposed to go OL, but once I saw my bed BLAG I was out. :P
When I woke up I had the sniffles. Which I still have until now. XP
Hmm, what else? Ah, I'm getting over my psychotic rant in my previous post. Fine. No RO for now. But I'll install it as soon as I get the chance. XD And I'll be playing ROSE. >:D
This is the number one thing my Mom hates about me; I always find a way to get around her.
Listening to: Avril Lavigne ~ Fall to Pieces
Things to Note:
- I hate Tuesdays because my PE totally sucks. XD
- I still love the rain, but I seriously need an umbrella.
- I need a waterproof jacket. XDDD
- Masarap ang C2.
- I look like a drug addict on my ID card. XDDDD
- MY DISPLAY PIC IS NOT A PUPPY!!!! GAAAAAAAAAH. XDDDD
- UST has a large supply of fresh dead bodies, aka cadavers. (I SAW A LOT! @_@)
Thanks to the people who share their umbrellas with me all the time. Thanks to Jumbo and to Coco especially. And to Jz and Rj for showing us the places in Dapitan. And to Coco, Jumbo, Jz and Rj for all the laughtrips. =P
Ok, serious post time now. (Damn, I'm hungry. >_< I still don't have a stable appetite.)
Anyway. Last night I cried. Because... Mom restricted me from playing RO. Ever again. She even had it uninstalled. I know it probably seems really shallow to a lot of people. But for me, I mean... I've devoted a lot of my time into this game. Maybe a bit too much, but not as much as I used to, I promise. I don't even go past 9pm because I have a PC Curfew! Dad doesn't care what I do. He just follows what my mom says. And mom says that she just doesn't like the game. And Jeth doesn't like it either because one of his batchmates supposedly committed suicide over it (WTF?). Like I'd be that stupid.
What's so wrong with it? Why don't you look for 5 year old boys trash talking in Gunbound? Or 7 year olds killing each other in Counterstrike or massacring people in GTA? O_o Hell, I don't even know how to play those games. @_@ Plus, I really doubt RO would make me think of bringing a gun to school and killing everyone in sight.
I just don't understand why my mom restricts me so much? The more she restricts me the more I want to break the rules. When I compare it to the way she treats my brother.. it's really unfair. She handles me with an iron fist, while she handles him with a velvet glove. He's so SPOILED! And I hate it so much because it's so unfair! He's 20 but he acts like he's 13. >_< But mom spoils him and so he acts like he's never going to grow up. So I took his place in terms of chores and expectations. Although I know they still can't believe I took up Asian Studies instead of Nursing. Pfffft. BITE ME. You won't catch me in pure white. I won't do the pureness justice.
I just want to get mad at them, but I CAN'T. I never seem to be able to stay angry. Why the hell is that anyway? O_o It's like one moment I'm seething then the next thing I know I'm reasoning with myself not to be like that. Gaaah. I want to screeeeeeeeeam so loud but I don't. I want to argue but I keep my mouth shut. I want to fight but I remain docile. I just want to stay angry, even if just for a while. I want them to know that I DO get angry. I want them to know that I DO cry. They just don't know it because I lock myself in my room, and by the time I come out the feeling is locked away somewhere. One day I swear it's just going to explode and I'll become all PSYCHOTIC. I'LL BE THE PSYCHOTIC EVER HUNGRY BOLEMIC ANOREXIC ASIAN STUDIES AMERICAN GIRL. @_@ THEN I'LL START RUNNING ABOUT SWEARING IN STRAIGHT ENGLISH KILLING PEOPLE WITH MY OUTDATED ATLAS!!
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Ewan ko. Naguguluhan ako. (More like nababaliw.) Everyone seems busy, so BLEH! Sorry blog. You carry the whole weight of my vague-ness.
Thanks to Carlo for chatting with me. And for making me feel better. Even if just for a while.
Give me wings.
Listening to: Parokya ni Edgar ~ Sayang
Someone told me to listen to this song and tell him if he's like this. Now I'm smiling because the song is catchy. XD
Happy Birthday to Racine! :D :D :D You're now 17. XD
Anyway. I haven't been able to update lately. D:
Ok, let's do a brief rundown of what happened this week.
Wednesday
Pretty normal day. But lo and behold, I came home, and my bunk bed was gone! :O *GASP* Well, the top half of it was gone. But still. My bunk bed has been in my room since... ever since we moved here six years ago. O_o And now it's gone! Dang. Well, they installed a ceiling fan, and it's pretty useful. The light sucks tho. And now I have a lot of bare wall. XD
Thursday
Jeth drove Coco and I to school. I NEVER WANT TO RIDE WITH HIM AGAIN. He is a CRAZY driver, and when I say crazy, not the kind that's fun in a dangerous way; more like road rage. >_< And he was rude to Coco as well. Bleh. That jerk.
At least later that afternoon we got to listen to Parokya ni Edgar perform. XD They were promoting Rexona, so the sound of "First Day Funk" happily floated about the campus.
Friday
Celebrated Racine's birthday! :D Took a jeep with Racine and Maku from McDo Ever to UP, then UP to Katipunan. We went to McDo Katips where we met up with Cai, where we waited for Gela. We talked about a lot of stuff there. And ate as well. XD And there were a lot of Miriam girls there. (no duh XD) Being from Holy, it was like walking in hostile territory (and for reasons other than that, lol.). XD Saw a lot of people there too. We saw Simone, who looked kinda aloof. I saw Yumi, one of my neighbors. I even got to see Guilty! Lol. I told him I'd be at ADMU for a while, and I guess he fit it into his sched to see me. Woohoo! One more guildmate down. XD Haha, the first thing I did when I saw him was to make fun of him for choosing such a hard course. XD Mean. Meh, just talked for a while, then he left. Then Gela arrived, and it was back to UP for the Freshteeeg Concert. We took the overpass, and we met Miggy there. :O Surprise! XP
When we got there, we met up with Gretchen, and saw that the line was UBER LONG. @_@ It went around the whole building! Gah. So we stood in line for what seemed like.. forever. Well, at around an hour and a half later, we decided to eat at Katipunan instead. Cai stayed with her blockmates, and we went off to Katips. I had my handy dandy pepper spray as we walked. XD Ate at Kamirori, and Gretch had the weirdest laughing trip ever. XD She couldn't even touch my iced tea before laughing.
We then went to Seattle's Best. Gretch bought food so we could stay... and I fell asleep. LOL. I sleep everywhere. XD At least I wasn't the only one who fell asleep, as Maku did as well. Then at around 11:30, Racine's dad picked us up and it was home for us.
Saturday
Dad and I went to Dusit to visit my cousin from the states. I took her around Glorietta and all we did was SHOP. Well, she shopped. I had no money. XD We also got to watch SpongeCola there; Elida and Creamsilk had this major makeover thingie going on, and SpongeCola performed. Twas cool.
Today
We went to Powerplant today and watched War of the Worlds! Twas.. freaky. But cool. *nods*
I went window shopping with my mom, and I couldn't help but feel the pressure of 'what's in'. O_o All the girls in skirts and flip flops got to me. O_o And I started wondering why I'd never wear clothes like that. I think the main reason would be because I don't want to follow what's in. O_o Mom thinks I dress very ordinarily, and I told her that I dress extraordinarily now because what's extraordinary to her is ordinary to everyone else since everyone wears it. Confused yet? XD But anyway. Even though I say I don't want to follow the trend, I think I just don't believe I can pull it off. XP What a weird reason. But seriously, I wonder why my style is the way it is. After all, you can tell a person's personality by what they wear, at least most of the time you can.
Maybe I'll try something different one of these days.