- find out what I want in life
- this moment to happen
- be a Dean's List-er
- learn how to ride a motorcycle
- go skydiving
- go scuba diving
- make my own blog layout
- learn how to use Flash
- travel more
- improve my drawing skills
- VINTAGE
- go to a Flea market
- a Tarot Card Deck
- fashion sense
- femme outfits
- witty t-shirts
- vintage clothes and accessories
- make my own clothes!
- go on a shopping spree
- contribute to WWF
- a DSLR
- bake something
- A CAR
- A CAR THAT I CAN DRIVE - an underwater camera
- cosplay again
- visit my online friends
- stop being a safeist
- happiness
Ok, I'm banging my head on the table now in frustration. Of all the times I get to sneak using the PC, the internet decides the bitch on me. Thank you. Thank you soo much, the universe consipiring with me right now. I can feel the cooperation! Yeah.
Anyway.. Gah. Today was crap. Boring. Singing. Running out of voice. 9 more days of singing! T_T Blah blah blah yeah. Still have 9 days of singing, practicing, checking of gala uniforms and such. I have to have my grad shoes by wednesday. O_o Right. So, good luck to me. n_n;
Guess who managed to get grounded again? ._. Yep. I don't know how I do it. I'm really good at doing whatever it is tho. n_n; It was over the APEX exam thingie for DLSU. I missed the deadline for it, and so I'm not going to be able to take them. It's a sort of exam where you can get free credits in certain subjects if you get high scores. I don't really care about the APEX, because I want nothing more than to get into Ateneo. I am completely paranoid over getting into Ateneo. Now I know EXACTLY what Racine felt when the UP results weren't out yet. I don't know what I'll do if I don't get into Ateneo. I THINK I WILL DIE ok maybe I won't die, but ugh. The thought. No. I will not think about it. Gah. I HAVE to think about it. I should have just passed that damned ACET so I wouldn't be in this state. >_< Now I'm researching the new BS Computer Science course that DLSU is offering; BS Com Sci ICTM. O_o I should ask Carmi what she's taking. Jeth isn't exactly very supportive of me taking Com Sci, because that's the course that he failed while he was in the States. If he can't do it, I can't do it, so he says. Uh. Ok.
I got the letter from UP telling me that I didn't make the cut. n_n; Which is ok, I didn't expect to pass UP anyway. I wasn't vying for UP like Racine. The cut off for UP Dili was 2.322 I think. My UPG was 2.525. At least I can get into UP Cebu, UP Baguio, UP Tacloban, UP Pampanga, or maybe even UP Mindanao. XD Surprisingly, my score in science was my highest. O_O Beat my language and reading comprehension skills by 4 points. O_o Math was the one that pulled me down tho.
Over the weekend, I've been paying more attention to how my mom treats me and how she treats my brother. As much as I don't want to compare, I am, and there are major differences. Ok, lets put my brother and I next to each other, shall we? Physically, we're practically opposites. He's a guy, I'm a girl. He's blonde, I'm brunette. He's tall, I'm short. Shorter. Fair skinned, morena. List goes on and on. Attitude-wise, we're still different. Nearly opposites as well. He's into daily life grinds, I'm more flexible and open. He's stubborn, I'm not so stubborn, but still stubborn nonetheless. He's quite responsible, I'm not so. He's more into academics, I'm more into the arts. His room is a mess, mine is organized to an extent. The list goes on and on, and is even longer. Even with these differences in mind, I don't see why my mom treats him so differently. He's pampered. n_n; And she recognizes him more. I don't mean to sound jealous. Yih, anything but that. It just feels unfair to me. My parents know that my brother is dependent on them. And they tell me that they don't want the same thing to happen to me. I understand that, but the measures that they're taking to make sure that it doesn't happen are starting to feel like I'm being trampled underfoot. =/ But I understand them. I really am irresponsible, as much as I hate to admit it.
Had confession today. I told the priest about how I was being disobedient and was swearing a lot. But at least I still go to Mass every sunday. He told me to pray. And so I do. And will continue to do so.
We had kittens recently. Just 2. One of them died this morning. It was because the mother wasn't taking care of it. It was sickly. It couldn't stand and would barely eat. I always urged it to live while I was ironing clothes or washing dishes. When I found out it died, I went to the backdoor. I saw the mother there. I wondered if animals could feel sadness.
Long posts = a thoughtful poster. Or, just a person who likes to retell things that have happened. I guess I am both. :P
I finally bought myself a CD. I don't remember the last time I bought myself a cd. :O It was the Spongecola CD, but I don't remember when I got it. :P Haha. Meeeeeeeemory loss. Anyway, I got the KJWAN CD. Felt like rocking out when I got it. Was having moodswings at Rockwell then. n_n; Plus I was able to get my mom to buy me the Phantom of the Opera OST. <3 Yaaaaaaaaay. I haven't listened to them yet tho. ._. I always get called downstairs to do chores. But I'll try to tonight I guess. Hopefully I won't fall asleep.
Gah, I have to re-install Nero. D:
[Belated Happy Birthday to Cai who turned 17 on March 5 and Gretchen who turned 16 on March 6~!]
