- find out what I want in life
- this moment to happen
- be a Dean's List-er
- learn how to ride a motorcycle
- go skydiving
- go scuba diving
- make my own blog layout
- learn how to use Flash
- travel more
- improve my drawing skills
- VINTAGE
- go to a Flea market
- a Tarot Card Deck
- fashion sense
- femme outfits
- witty t-shirts
- vintage clothes and accessories
- make my own clothes!
- go on a shopping spree
- contribute to WWF
- a DSLR
- bake something
- A CAR
- A CAR THAT I CAN DRIVE - an underwater camera
- cosplay again
- visit my online friends
- stop being a safeist
- happiness
Why do I even try? Listening to: Goo Goo Dolls ~ Name
Prom Countdown: 3 days
I am in a slump. I feel lost. No direction. No destination. Not even a northern star to guide my way. (As if I could even find it) I'm just.. so... ergh.
I had a dress rehearsal with my mom last sunday. When I was wearing everything, I was just looking at myself in the mirror. I told her I wanted to win the Stag of the Night award, and she said nothing. Not even a nod. She just looked at the dress. She didn't say anything. It was so horrible; even a shred of recognition would have been ok, but she showed nothing. I took my dress off and hung it in my brother's closet. As I wiped the make-up from my face, I couldn't help but wonder if I really am the source of all her stress. Looking back on the past week, it doesn't look good at all. She doesn't speak to me. She doesn't greet me when I come home and greet her. Geez, not even at the dinner table. I can't help but think that she hates me or something. I know I'm probably over reacting, but with the way things are...